Game Review: Marvel Heroes

I was reading about video game news one day when I stumbled across Marvel Heroes.  I had been reading about games in a genre now called Multiplayer Online Battle Arena (MOBA), which includes games like Defense of the Ancients (DOTA) and League of Legends (LOL), and naturally I thought Marvel Heroes another in that style. The MOBA genre is growing quickly, with DC and Blizzard coming out with titles based on their licenses.

I was pleasantly surprised however when I read that Marvel Heroes was actually an action RPG in the vein of Diablo.  In fact, Gazillion Entertainment was founded by David Brevik who was previously a designer for Blizzard North, the team behind Diablo and Diablo II.  What made me more interested was the price tag.  FREE TO PLAY.

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What is Love? (Part 2)

In my previous post (seen here), I commented on romantic love.  This one is more about the overall term “love”, meaning to love your family, love your fellow man, and so on.

When you love someone, you feel a general amount of good towards them.  It doesn’t mean you instantly want to give them all your money, but to me, it means that you want the best for them.  You want everyone to be happy.  And isn’t that ultimately what everyone wants out of life?  To be happy?  When you love people, be it your mother, or a friend, or a random person on the street, you want them to be happy, and you don’t want to do something that may take that happiness away from them.  You care.

Sadly, most people don’t have that amount of love for others.  They simply don’t care.  They will think about only their own happiness and will do what they can to get what they want out of life, and others be damned.  It’s sad to think about, but this is what our world is based around now.  On a small scale, to a large scale.  At a workplace, where a co-worker doesn’t care about how their actions reflect upon the people they work with.  In a town, where someone is in such a hurry to get somewhere that they will cut people off and potentially cause accidents.  In society, where people will force their beliefs on others, instantly condemning them, simply because they want to be happy.  In the world, where people fight wars for their entire lives over something that happened generations ago.  They fight over land, over oil, over nothing in some cases.

And why, what does it all mean?  Are they fighting to be happy, or are they fighting just because that’s all they know how to do?  Because that’s what their parents taught them?

Why do people still hate???  In this world where we are supposed to be an enlightened species, where we are supposedly the most intelligent species on the planet, why are we hurting and killing each other over stupid things?  Why do we get angry over every little thing that isn’t exactly how we think things should be in our head?  Why can’t we let people be happy?  What’s wrong with that?

I may be an idealist, but here is my plan for achieving world peace.  It needs to start small, and it won’t happen in our lifetime, but it can happen if people work towards it.

1) Strive for our own happiness, but not at the expense of others.  If we ourselves can find happiness, in whatever way works best for us, and it doesn’t hurt anyone else, then do it!  Live life, be free, do what you want to do.  And maybe that happiness will be contagious.  Maybe someone will live by your example.  Which leads to step 2.

2) Teach your children love and happiness.  I honestly think that parenting plays a much, much bigger role on children’s lives that people think.  At 36 years old, I still think that the way I am, both bad and good, is largely because of how my parents treated me.  My mother was always loving and caring, always empathetic and treated me with respect.  My dad wasn’t always the same, and I’ve honestly developed a lot of insecurities over my life because of it.  He’s completely different now, and we are much closer than we’ve ever been, so those issues are very, very slowly getting better.  So if a child is taught happiness and love at an early age, chances are it will stick with them.

3) Be accepting of others.  If someone is happy, and they are hurting no one else, why should it bother us?  Yea some people are different.  Some people are weird.  I know I’m pretty weird.  I like gory horror movies.  No, I mean REALLY gory.  I like inappropriate humor.  I don’t have fun in the same ways as others, but I certainly try my best not to cause any problems to anyone else.  I like that people are different.  If everyone was exactly the same, the world would be such a boring place!

I know, I know.  It’s stupid to think that things can change.  It’s hard to preach happiness when there is so much crap going on.  But it’s really up to us to change the perception of things and do what we can to help make the world a better place.  I know I certainly would like to know true happiness before I die, and that’s what I strive for.  At the very least, if I can’t make myself happy, I’d like to help others become happy with themselves.  I’d love to leave behind a legacy of good.  And I think if everyone tried to do that as well, the world would be a better place.  :)

What is Love? (Part 1)

Baby don’t hurt me…don’t hurt me…no more… (sorry, I had to).

Love is one of those concepts that few can truly quantify.  It’s probably the most difficult emotion to explain.  You know it when you feel it, or at least y0u THINK you do.  Of course, there is infatuation and lust to consider.  There is also the feeling of loneliness and desperation that lead people to think they are in love with someone.

I can be an emotional person and sometimes will let my feelings get the better of me.  I try not to, and try to keep them buried as much as I can, but that can be difficult.  As such, I usually end up having to choose how I want to proceed when I am attracted to someone.

1) If it’s someone I click well with, and we get along, I can just be up front and tell them how I feel!  Sadly, this has rarely worked out in my favor, if ever.  More often than not, it creates a new rift in the friendship.  Sometimes that rift heals.  Sometimes it doesn’t.  I am able to move on fairly well when rejected, but sometimes women don’t expect that, and just decide that the friendship isn’t worth maintaining after the “big revelation.”

2) I can also choose to keep it inside.  Not tell them how I feel.  Just enjoy my time with them and expect no change from the situation.  I can see them date guys and break up time after time and just be there for them.  Of course, this often destroys me on the inside.

3) And what if I don’t LET those feelings in?  What if there are people I get along with so well, but I don’t see the potential there for the big L and nothing ever happens.  What if the “one for me” has already moved on?

For my entire life, I have wanted to have that typical family unit.  I’ve wanted to get married, have children, and see them grow up.  I know life will never be perfect, but it seems like it’s so little to ask for.  I’m 36 years old, and I’ve only been in 2 real relationships my entire life.  I’ve been in a 3rd that wasn’t really a relationship and is better left for another day.  :)

I deal with a lot of people much younger than myself, which is why I tend to act younger than I am.  I see so many people happy, finding that special someone.  I see weddings.  I see people having kids.  As a photographer, I witness all these things from the outside, but as always, I am sad because I want to experience these things myself.  And I simply don’t know if it will ever happen.

And yes, I could go to any number of places to meet women.  But I am not the type that goes out to pick up women.  That’s not who I am or what I am about.  I want to become friends first, and get to know them, because if we can’t get along, then there is no relationship.

I expect life will happen as it does.  God will either send me the person I’m meant to be with, or that person may not exist.  Maybe I am better for this world as a single person.  And that would be fine and dandy if I knew that were the case.  But it sucks when I just want to snuggle up with someone and watch TV or a movie.  :)

Welcome, One and All

Greetings!  My name is Lee Baxley.  I’m a photographer in Broken Arrow, OK, a suburb of Tulsa.

This blog exists because I enjoy writing.  I enjoy writing on all sorts of things.  And I enjoy it when people read what I write.  I’ve never been that big into writing fiction, though I used to write video game reviews and a weekly column for various iterations of a site that is now Diehard GameFAN.

In this blog, I will share some of my experiences, give advice (usually on what NOT to do), and bare more of my soul than I should.  But that’s how I write.  Topics will include my life, health, photography, video games, or whatever strikes my fancy on any given day.

I hope that people continue to read what I write and maybe find it interesting.  And maybe, just maybe, I can help someone with something they are having difficulty with.  That would make this all well worth it.

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